Thoughts of…
I have caught myself thinking through many aspects of life lately. You would probably ask, “you spend your entire day alone six days a week, isn’t that normal?” If I had to answer that question honestly, I’d have to say ‘no, it is not normal.’ It is amazing how easy it is to fill up life with non-essentials. I have been off of bed rest for two and a half weeks and I have spent the majority of that time not thinking through life. I have been productive, getting things done so we are prepared for the arrival of Isabella which has been great. We pulled the nursery together, purchased those last minute things we need and are all-in-all ready for her to arrive.
Then you ask, “so what has been occupying your thoughts?” I would have to honestly respond with, ‘I don’t know.’ I have been in the word, but not to the depth I would like, I have been in prayer but not quietly meditating on the Lord. Now that all the “stuff” is done, I have been thinking a lot. Am I ready to be a mother? Am I ready to re-embrace my roll as Clint’s wife? Am I truly relying solely on the strength of the Lord to survive these last few grueling weeks of pregnancy? I don’t think I can honestly answer ‘yes’ to all of those questions….but, I am very thankful that the Lord has pressed those questions upon my heart so that I might look for his wisdom to answer them.
I am sure I will update you on how my contemplation is going in the days to come.
-Megan
